The Cost

I had a meeting with 2 young men yesterday. After the meeting, they began to ask me about YWAM and what life without a salary is like. As I shared my experiences of God's everyday faithfulness and jaw-dropping miracles,  I said this to them: "When I heard it from others' mouths, I thought it was so great.... but when it started happening to me and became my own experience, it's different - it's 100 times more amazing and life-changing."

After that I went home and reflected on that conversation. It reminded me of the cost I had to pay to live such a wonderful life that people 'envy'. The privilege of experiencing a life of faith and zero finances is great and something not-so-common in society, but it's not that I'm part of a privileged chosen group to have had that experience. There was a cost involved.

And this morning it reassured me as I stood in front of the bathroom mirror, that I've had such an amazing life with God, and it's because the major downs, pain, laying down rights and jealousy, walking the narrow path, etc, paid the price for a life in the middle of God's will..... I may have sacrificed a marriage relationship, fashion and beauty, a nice house and loads of money to live the life I like, but there's a life and walk with God that money cannot buy and that you need to pay the price for.

And when I saw their faces yesterday, how they were so in awe and envious of the life experiences I had, I knew that price was worth paying.